Self-actualization. The fever is high.

I started thinking about writing about women and relationships.  Something I really have not blogged about.  I think about it often.  I need security, love, and a bunch of other things to fully connect.  Yet if I do not have all of those elements, life goes on.  A needs versus wants question.  Maslow’s hierarchy of needs stuff.

My son is engaged to be married.  I wish him well.  I see a lot of myself in him.  He knows what he wants and is entirely confident he will achieve a great relationship.  I was young once.

Women are wonderful creatures.  I like women.  They are often kind and soft and curvy in the right places.  So many wonderful qualities.  Most are mothers.  That is an awesome accomplishment which is denied to half the population.

This is a subject I have given much thought.  It is hard to write for me to write about women and relationships.  Women (and men) are complex.  It occurs to me that I have too many thoughts.  The brain is obnoxiously powerful and I slip into overthinking.  I think there may be an advantage of being stupid.  Stupid people just do.  They do not have delusions of great improvement and perfection.  But I digress…..

It is easier to express things in a quick image or joke that may contain more than a kernel of truth.  Sound-bites for a blog.  That is how the world operates now, limited deep thought and analysis, just 30 second sound-bites.  I can do that.  So it goes…..

The dissolution of my marriage and the betrayal was hard. People change, I accept that.  It is easy to find conduct that offends me and it is easy to find things that I dislike.   That does not answer the secret to relationships other to know what is terribly bad.  But I digress….

I work hard and play hard.  No one wants that naggy girlfriend that is attached to your hip 24/7.  I have come to the conclusion that relationships are hard.  Avoidance is an option.  I read about the red hats for women and the red pills for men.  Lots of different philosophies.  It seems like there are a lot of bitter folks out there.  I do not want to be bitter.  But I digress…..

I aim to please, but I don’t like mistakes or to feel stupid.  I want to suck up all of the information on what makes relationships work.  I want to know what makes women tick.  There are too many answers.  The investment is high.  Risk reward is questionable.  I question whether or not I am completely willing to make the investment.  I am so busy so often.  I am skeptical that there are any true soul mates out there.  There is always room for improvement. 

This is hard to write.  I have no easy answers.  I am looking for that clean neat conclusion.  I am looking to get to the top of the pyramid.  Not going to happen is it? 

Do I want to much?  Perhaps it comes down to this: Does it work?

 

PMS-- Feeling it

A toast to dead poets

“We don't read and write poetry because it's cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion. So medicine, law, business, engineering... these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life. But poetry, beauty, romance, love... these are what we stay alive for.”
― N.H. Kleinbaum, Dead Poets Society


“They're not that different from you, are they? Same haircuts. Full of hormones, just like you. Invincible, just like you feel. The world is their oyster. They believe they're destined for great things, just like many of you, their eyes are full of hope, just like you. Did they wait until it was too late to make from their lives even one iota of what they were capable? Because, you see gentlemen, these boys are now fertilizing daffodils. But if you listen real close, you can hear them whisper their legacy to you. Go on, lean in. Listen, you hear it? - - Carpe - - hear it? - - Carpe, carpe diem, seize the day boys, make your lives extraordinary.”
― N.H. Kleinbaum, Dead Poets Society

A subtle art; Giving a Fuck

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Shower Thoughts

Pizza is a pie chart that updates in real time showing how much pizza you have left.

Instead of looking up into the sky, you're actually gazing down into the infinite cosmic abyss, with only gravity holding you to the surface of the Earth.

I've been practicing eating my entire life and I'm still not good enough at it to not use a napkin.

Your shadow is a confirmation that light has traveled nearly 93 million miles unobstructed, only to be deprived of reaching the ground in the final few feet thanks to you.

Stolen from Reddit.....

A work in progress

My life, a work in progress.

I write to no one but myself.  I am a contradiction.  I play the game.  I show up.  I pay my taxes.  I lick my own wounds.

I enjoy the road less traveled.  I search the wild places for peaceful discoveries. I avoid highways when possible. It often is not possible.

I believe we are each responsible for our own happiness. I would like to leave the world a better place than I found it.  

I like mechanical things.  They excite me. I want to know what makes them tick.

I love my dog and hope I can be half the man he thinks I am.  He does not try to change me and forgives me when I fail.

I am a romantic. I won’t sit at home and wait for luck to find me. I will chase it down.  Or not.

“I am convinced that Adrenaline is an essential nutrient and that we take risk not to escape life but rather to prevent life from escaping us.” Author unknown.

I am a risk taker but I measure and minimize that risk.

I like to think, talk and read. I try to learn, always.

I am an over achiever. “That which doesn’t kill me only makes me stronger”. 

Travel and discovery are important to me.

 

I show up.  I chase the money.  I am a contradiction.  But there might be something I'd rather be doing.

The law of "Fuck Yes or No"

From Mark Manson

I like this guys writing.

We all need to say fuck yes to something.  This is a challenge for thinkers. 

Life is short, go for it. 

How much in life is a fuck yes?  Not enough in my opinion.  Is that a function of experience, unrealistic expectations, or overthinking?

I shall endeaver to make this a bigger part of my decision making.

Think about this for a moment: Why would you ever choose to be with someone who is not excited to be with you?

There’s a grey area in dating many people get hung up on — a grey area where feelings are ambiguous or one person has stronger feelings than the other. This grey area causes real, tangible issues. As a man, a huge question is often whether to be persistent and continue pursuing a woman even when she seems lukewarm or hot/cold on your advances. For women, a common question is what to do with men who make their feelings ambiguous.

“She said she’s not interested, but she still flirts with me, so what do I need to do to get her?”
“Well, I know she likes me, but she didn’t call me back last weekend, what should I do?”
“He treats me well when he’s around, but he’s hardly around. What does that mean?”

Most dating advice exists to “solve” this grey area for people. Say this line. Text her this. Call him this many times. Wear that.

Much of it gets exceedingly analytical, to the point where some men and women actually spend more time analyzing behaviors than actually, you know, behaving.

Frustration with this grey area also drives many people to unnecessary manipulation, drama and game-playing. This is where you get rules about making men pay for this many dates before you can become intimate. Or how men need to transition from attraction phase to comfort phase by qualifying three times before they’re allowed to commence an escalation ladder.

These things may seem clever and exciting to some people who are stuck or frustrated. But this dating advice misses the point. If you’re in the grey area to begin with, you’ve already lost. 

Let me ask again: Why would you ever be excited to be with someone who is not excited to be with you? If they’re not happy with you now, what makes you think they’ll be happy to be with you later? Why do you make an effort to convince someone to date you when they make no effort to convince you?

What does that say about you? That you believe you need to convince people to be with you?

You wouldn’t buy a dog that bites you all the time. And you wouldn’t be friends with someone who regularly ditches you. You wouldn’t work a job that doesn’t pay you. Then why the hell are you trying to make a girlfriend out of a woman who doesn’t want to date you? Where’s your self-respect?

The entrepreneur Derek Sivers once wrote a blog post where he said, “If I’m not saying ‘Hell Yeah!’ to something, then I say no.” It served him well in the business world and now I’d like to apply it to the dating world. And because I’m more of a vulgar asshole than Derek is, I’ll christen mine The Law of “Fuck Yes or No.”

The Law of “Fuck Yes or No” states that when you want to get involved with someone new, in whatever capacity, they must inspire you to say “Fuck Yes” in order for you to proceed with them.

The Law of “Fuck Yes or No” also states that when you want to get involved with someone new, in whatever capacity, THEY must respond with a “Fuck Yes” in order for you to proceed with them.

As you can see, The Law of “Fuck Yes or No” implies that both parties must be enthusiastic about the prospect of one another’s company. Why? Because attractive, non-needy, high self-worth people don’t have time for people who they are not excited to be with and who are not excited to be with them.

This may sound a bit idealistic to some. But The Law of “Fuck Yes or No” has many tangible benefits on your dating life:

1. No longer be strung along by people who aren’t that into you. End all of the headaches. End the wishing and hoping. End the disappoint and anger that inevitably follows. Start practicing self-respect. Become the rejector, not the rejected.
2. No longer pursue people you are so-so on for ego purposes. We’ve all been there. We were so-so about somebody, but we went along with it because nothing better was around. And we all have a few we’d like to take back. No more.
3. Consent issues are instantly resolved. If someone is playing games with you, playing hard to get, or pressuring you into doing something you’re unsure about, your answer is now easy. Or as I often like to say in regards to dating, “If you have to ask, then that’s your answer.”
4. Establish strong personal boundaries and enforce them. Maintaining strong boundaries not only makes one more confident and attractive, but also helps to preserve one’s sanity in the long-run.
5. Always know where you stand with the other person. Since you’re now freeing up so much time and energy from people you’re not that into, and people who are not that into you, you now find yourself perpetually in interactions where people’s intentions are clear and enthusiastic. Sweet!

The Law of “Fuck Yes or No” is applicable to dating, sex, relationships, even friendships. You may have absolutely nothing in common with that bartender. But they’re hot and are interested in getting down. Is it a “Fuck Yes!” for sex? It is? Then game on.

Wrapped up in that sweet guy who treats you so well, except goes weeks without calling you and suddenly disappears after a couple drinks and a round of the horizontal polka? Been wondering if he really likes you? Do his excuses of being so busy all the time seem legit? It doesn’t sound like the answer is a “Fuck yes.” Then it’s time to move on.

Making out with a girl at your house and every time you go to take her shirt off she swats your hands away? That is not a “Fuck Yes,” my friend, therefore, it’s a no and you shouldn’t pressure her. The best sex is “Fuck Yes” sex — i.e., both people are shouting “Fuck Yes” as they hop between the sheets together. If she’s not hopping, then there’s no fucking.

(Hint Fellas: This is a great time to ask the girl why she’s not comfortable, and what she’s looking for from you. That, by itself — you know, treating her like a human and empathizing with her — often solves this “problem.”)

Want to date that woman you met last weekend but she keeps ignoring your texts and calls? Not sure what to say or do, especially since she seemed so happy to go out with you when you initially met her? Well, my friend, this is obviously not a “Fuck Yes.” Therefore, it is a “No.” Delete her number and move on.

Fuck Yes or No applies to relationships as well. My girlfriend works with a guy who got married because “it seemed like the right thing to do.” Four years later, he was cheating on his wife every chance he got. The marriage was not a Fuck Yes for him, therefore it should have been a No.

Sometimes The Law of Fuck Yes or No will apply differently on different levels. You may be a “Fuck Yes” for friendship with someone, but mildly excited to have sex with them. Therefore, it’s a no. You may be a “Fuck Yes” on banging someone’s brains out, but a definite “No” on actually spending any time with them. Apply the law to your decision-making as it suits your current needs.

Fuck Yes or No doesn’t necessarily mean you have to be falling in knee-wobbling love at first sight. It doesn’t even mean you have be completely convinced that someone is right for you. You can be “Fuck Yes” about getting to know someone better. You can be “Fuck Yes” about seeing someone again because you think there’s something there. You can be “Fuck Yes” about giving things a few months to pan out and see if you can fix the problems in the relationship.

The point is: both you and the other person need to be fuck yes about something, otherwise you’re just wasting your time.

A common Fuck Yes response from a woman. Flowers and all.

But the real beauty of The Law of “Fuck Yes or No” is that it simplifies the problems you can have in your dating life. When applying the Law of “Fuck Yes or No,” there are really only two problems one can have.

The first problem is people who never feel a “Fuck Yes” for anybody they meet. If you are lukewarm on absolutely everyone you meet, then either your demographics are way off, or you suffer from a lack of vulnerability and are protecting yourself by remaining indifferent and unenthused by all of those around you.

Remember, it’s your job to look for something cool in everyone you meet; it’s not their job to show you. This is life, not a fucking sales convention. Learning to appreciate people you meet is a skill you cultivate. So get on it. This doesn’t mean you have to fall in love with everyone who breathes in your direction. It just means you need to take responsibility for your ability to connect with the people you are meeting.

The second problem is people who never meet others who feel a “Fuck Yes” for them. If all of the people you pursue give you a mild responses, or outright rejections, then it’s time to focus on improving yourself. Ask yourself, what is it about yourself that would inspire others to say “Fuck Yes” about you? If the answer is not obvious, then you get to work. Build yourself into a person others would say “Fuck Yes” to.

And this is the ultimate dating advice lesson — man, woman, gay, straight, trans, furry, whatever — the only real dating advice is self improvement. Everything else is a distraction, a futile battle in the grey area, a prolonged ego trip. Because, yes, with the right tools and performance, you may be able to con somebody into sleeping with you, dating you, even marrying you. But you will have won the battle by sacrificing the war, the war of long-term happiness.

http://markmanson.net/fuck-yes

Tension

Things I am good at

I am just a simple guy from Lake Wobegon.  It’s no big secret, everyone thinks they are defective. Everyone of us wonders if we are mentally odd in some way. I am flawed for sure.  It occurs to me that every now and then I should take stock in things I am pretty good at.  I am curious with may interests.  I have this, perhaps delusional, idea that I can do anything I set my mind to.  I am not focusing on my many deficiencies at this time.

Things I am pretty good at, in no particular order:

Fixing things; Analyzing; Thinking; Learning; Driving; Riding my motorcycles; Carpentry; Cooking; Photography; Dog training; Claims; Negotiating; Researching; Chess; Planning; Cards; Poker; A decent mechanic; Water skiing; Canoeing; Shooting; Fishing; Creating playlists; Sarcasm; Working hard; Trivia; Fantasy Football, Investing; Picking out things or colors that look good; Drinking; Navigating; Being independent; Honesty; Directness; Reading; Evaluating, and Seeing the big picture.

Hopefully I missed a few.